Time to say goodbye..
It's just another love story.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007,
8:59 PM
Boy, you're the life that I'm leading.
I just can't go on without you.

I swear I'll be true; Even if so much time has passed, I do still.
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8:18 PM
I swore to you my love.
And I'll swear it all over again.
Cause you're the only one that's worthy of me.Today was super cold. Walked into school with Cesca and she tied bob. Messy and weird. Ate sweets the whole day under table. I have absolutely no confidence on scoring good grades for my Physics test. I suck at Chem too. I don't understand a single thing Mrs Ng was teaching. I swear that the weather is getting colder and colder everyday. Perhaps we'll even see snow in Singapore soon. One never knows. History class was a bore with the usual teacher droning on and on. Oh please, she asks us for our name tags and she can already memorize my name. Then what for put the tag? English was fun. Everyone was trying to snatch the English paper to fill in what topic they wanted for Oral Presentation. Somehow I preferred last year's where we got to choose a picture and present on it. Picture Discussion as they called it.
Gb was okay as usual just that today, the Sec 1s came. Finally. 18 recruits this year and they literally surrounded us. When the Sec 4s step down this year, they are so going to outnumber the seniors. Games were alright, food was delicious. And we did drills today. Once in a very long time. Oh, how much I miss doing it sometimes.
Yesterday.
So much for the 2o5 gathering. The guys just left without us and now the girls are 'ignoring' them. Oh, someone, please laugh. Its kinda obvious that we girls aren't really angry you know :X So we headed to the canteen instead where Brian and Min were busy counting money and taking blue tacks from.. Heh heh. I shouldn't let out the secret. But yeah. As Bally calls it, cheap:D They played basketball with some guys at the court near school and then headed home afterwards. I do miss 2o5 you know. A lot actually. I really can't wait till the chalet.
Tired these days and I really think its cause I'm coming down with the flu viral. I don't understand how can I feel really tired when I sleep at 11 plus every night and wake up at 6.15 every morning. It doesn't make sense. Oh well, many things in life doesn't make any sense too.
Oh yeah, if you're bored, please go to this Url, listen to the audio and read the subtitles. It may seem a bit racist but it's just for laughs(:
Click here!Okay, I'll just leave you all to see that video.
Beverly; I'm alright(: 171105<3
Ly; Lol, you're obsessed over him. What's with the no more blogging business?
Oh boy, I realize that I no longer love you. I'm just unwilling to let go of the past memories. They're too much a part of me to be forgotten. Reminiscing them in the class today just brought a fresh wave of tears. I've known you for less than a week. I don't understand how is it that I could have liked you. Its been weeks since I last saw you. I just wanted to say, Honaye, I sure do miss you (:Cesca, I am not torturing Marcus Tio. He's just my xiao di that's all ;DDDDDDDDDDDD I know you're just jealous.
Oh and yes, I'm liking 3o6 more and more!
Goodbye Earth.
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7:01 PM
Random facts (:
SEVENTEEN: You look at their profile/picture constantly.
SIXTEEN:
When you're on the phone with the, late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.FIFTEEN:
You read their texts or instant messages over and over again.FOURTEEN: You walk really slow when you're with them.
THIRTEEN: You feel shy whenever you're/they're around.
ELEVEN: When you think about them, your heart beats faster and slower at the same time.
TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.NINE: When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, all you see is him.
EIGHT: You start listening to songs that remind you of them.
SEVEN:
They're all you think about.SIX: You love they're hugs and kisses more than anything.
FIVE: You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them.
FOUR: You would do anything for them, or anything to see them.
THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.TWO: You were so busy thinking about that person, you didn't notice number twelve.
ONE: You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.
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Type your reactions when somebody say these phrases to you..WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?Well, like what?
I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU.It took you hell of a long time to realize that.
LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY. YOU'LL BE MUCH BETTER OFF.That shows that you just don't know me well enough.
COME ON, SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO.Really, alright then. ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO.I haven't even done mine, let alone help you do yours. Please find someone else (:
I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.I'm blessed to have someone like you too<3 style="font-style: italic;">WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
Du-uh, ask the person who created the days and calendars. 'Cause I can tell you I have no idea.
I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
I'll go only if you promise that you won't embarrass me in front of everyone else. {Just kidding;D}
YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?Yeps, you just told me that and thank you[:
I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU.Really? I don't think I am, for you.
I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU.Awww~ That's so sweet!
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN'T HIM/HER.What are you trying to say-.-
NOTHING!Ehh, okaaaay?
WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?Mummie says I shouldn't talk or give my numbers to strangers. Who did you say you were again?
CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?It depends, are you a good dancer? I don't want to have my feet stepped onto you know.
MAY I ESCORT YOU?
Yeah. But first, to where?
DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM TILL NOW?Naaah, I've gotten over that lil crush already.
YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED.Am I? I didn't really know what. Now, tell me more so that I can be sure :DDD
WHEN WILL I GET UR SWEET EYES?They're mine and so, never (:
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When a girl says, "I'll love you forever," she means it.When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Monday, January 29, 2007,
9:28 PM
A La Nanita Nana
Okaaaay, windy and brrrrrr, cold. I need to make a trip to the suana already. It has been freezing these few days. Thank god my classroom ain't air-conditioned or else you'll see an ice-cube being pushed by someone out of the classroom everyday. So cold la. I don't want to fall sick. Went to Prata shop after school with ling, min and cesca. Ate Prata for the first time this year with bubble tea. Was so full that I could hardly move much. Went to Monfort Mac to meet JunXiang and friend and then went to compass library to return/borrow book. So much for going to Bishan. Anyway, we're having 205 gathering tomorrow! Yeepie Yay! I miss 205'06 uber muchie. And I can't wait for the class chalet. Think of all the fun we're gonna have, all the games we're gonna play, all the drinks we're gonna consume. Ooolala~
I just can't wait until the June holidays
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Oh, Valentine's day is coming. Roses for my dear Cesca, ling and min<3
Maths test result wasn't very nice. Barely managed to scrap a pass. Literature however, I know I'll fail. I mean hellooooooo? The questions were weirdly phrased. Not to mention the fact that there wasn't enough time to complete it and the lack of sleep made it all the more difficult. Can you imagine me mugging at this period of the year? No one can believe it right. Firstly, me, Yiqing, mugging? *mouth drops open real wide* Isn't that the expression you're getting? Believe it or not, it's true. And secondly, it's January and the mugging starts already. Amazing! Pleas oh please dear lord, let me get good results this year and next year and every year.
Oh I miss taytay. I miss those nagging sessions he used to give and the sweets we used to kope:D
Oh well, I better go back to my literature notes.
Beverly; Good :/ On the 10th(:
Celina; What's so weird about that word? Opulence means wealth, riches, or affluence. Something like that. Buy me a purple rose? ;D
Mingting; YES! When are you free. I need to scream my sorrows out.
I wanna scream and pull my hair whenever I get ohso-frustrated.
Boy, I'm starting to think about you all over again :/Goodbye earth.
Sunday, January 28, 2007,
10:01 PM
You know its just too little too late.
Happy 2 years friendship anniversary my dear Jeremy Tee and Peh Wei Qiang! Went to PS to meet them and changed venue to Bugis. They were late. So much for guys are supposed to be the ones waiting for girls. Didn't do much as they joined their friend for her 'party' at Seoul Garden and we didn't feel like eating there. Wanted to drink badly but ended up at Starbucks. Guess we'll put that off to another day. Home around 9 or 10.
Shopping yesterday. Went to town and Bugis. Nothing much actually, just 2 tops that's all. After that went to grandma's house and slept. Was tired after walking so much and my feet hurt. Guess I better brush up my stamina for walking when I get to go shopping with May again. Home around 12.
Studied today. There's a lit test tomorrow on chapters 1-3. For real this time. Haven't managed to study for it as I was attempting to tackle part of the enormous stack of homework. Guess what, I only managed to do less than 1/8 of it. Some of the worksheets have only 1 or 2 questions. So much for scoring well this year and being a hardworking girl. Oh, I long for a holiday with many shopping sprees and credit cards. Rah.
I've stopped thinking about you, boy. It was just a crush that I had and know something, you helped me forget HIM. Thank you for that. It took more than 10 months of trying and knowing you for a week helped me forget him just like that. *shrugs.
Ly; lol, its okay la. Gives me something to do(:
Charlene; linked. thanks, your's is nice too:D
Beverly; can we go sooooon. pretty please D:
Vanessa, I'll always be here for you, through thick and thin, rain or shine. Please remember that no matter what, my shoulder's one you can count on, my ears one that you can scream and shout into. I'll bring tissues if you want to cry. Cheer up and know that you're never alone in this world for you'll always have me here :D
Saturday, January 27, 2007,
12:52 PM
Indeed I was just dreaming.
'Cause what I thought was meant to be, just wasn't.
I thought about it too much.
Drank a lil too much.
Cried a bit too much.
And the outcome's just too much to handle.
Boy, you taught me to dream again.
To believe that there's much more to the world than what I thought there was.
However it was all a facade when I thought I loved you.
Lies after lies after lies I heard.
Promises after promises after promises you made.
Know something, I just can't believe you anymore.
But what a beautiful dream it was while it lasted(:Beverly; I promise I'll be there.
Ly; Glad you know! Relinked btw.
Celina; Naaaah. I want a purple rose:D
Charlene; lol? How come miss me.
I need the beach. Anybody?
Wednesday, January 24, 2007,
8:14 PM
This just doesn't feel right.
Monday.
Went to Prata shop with the 3 crazy girls. Gossiped a bit while they bluetoothed songs to each other. After that headed over to Far East Plaza at around 5 plus, near 6. So we reached there at around 7. Lol? Didn't want to go home at first as it has been ages since we last went there. It was much emptier compared to the many times I was there in the past. Weekday perhaps? Met Zx and 'Superman' there. Was 'badly behaved' as I put it and went home around 8 plus 9 while they went to Bugis.
Tuesday.
Stayed back in school to help decorate the classroom with Cesca, Vera, Gen and Benjamin. Aww~ He's the only guy. All his friends pangseh-ed him. Did streamers and a DIY bookshelf. We're creative okay! Made it out of empty boxes. Vera's idea if I'm not wrong. Cool huh(: Just that the streamers kept getting "pulled" by the fans and 2 or 3 have been spoiled already. There goes our hard work. But satisfied with the efforts made. Decorated the notice board in front of the class and the 'Leave A Message' board behind.
Wednesday.
Gb today was alright I guessed. First Aid is still as hilarious as usual with all the practicals with Mr Tan. Didn't do much today actually. I'm officially on the decorating committee in class and YAY! Choing-ing the proposal now but Microsoft Excel isn't helping. It keeps hanging and overall, it just sucks. I don't know if I've missed out any of the details.
Feeling tired lately and sleeping early does not help at all. In fact I just feel more tired the next day. There's a "sickness virus" going around and I think I'll be the next one to get it. So much for keeping fit huh. Guess I better stop slacking around and get down to business.
Ly; Its up to you after all:D
Anon; Yeah, she is. You are..?
Cesca; A blue rose to him, or you?
Zhaozhi; HELLO ZZ!
Angeline; LOL! So much fun spamming huh.=D
Leegek; Awww, thanks^^
Vera; Hey!(;
Kristin; Just a hug from you will make my day[:
Boy, I gotta stop thinking about you.
Sunday, January 21, 2007,
11:32 AM
Valentine's Day is coming.
Red Roses.Red roses convey a simple message: "I love you". This makes them the ultimate symbol of romantic love and the most popular choice on Valentine's Day. Other meanings for red roses include desire, passion, courage, respect, beauty and sincerity. A red rosebud symbolizes purity and loveliness.Coral Roses.
Coral roses speak of desire and passion.
Lilac or Lavender Roses.Lilac roses reveal love at first sight or enchantment.Orange Roses.
Orange roses communicate desire, enthusiasm and fascination. They make an excellent choice for a new relationship that you wish to pursue further.
Peach Roses.
Peach roses express gratitude, appreciation, admiration or sympathy. They can also convey sociability and friendship and send the message “Let's get together “. A pale peach rose symbolizes modesty.
Purple Roses. Purple roses stand for enhancement, magnification, opulence, majesty and glory and mean I will always love you.Pink Roses.
In general, pink roses symbolize grace, gentility and happiness and express appreciation and gratitude.
Pale Pink Roses.
Pale pink roses connote grace, joy, gentility and gratitude.
Light Pink Roses.
Light pink roses suggest happiness and fun. Like all pink roses, they also convey admiration and appreciation.
Deep Pink Roses.
Deep pink roses say "Thank you". They also express appreciation, admiration, sincerity and sympathy.
White Roses.Second only to red roses in popularity, white roses symbolize truth and innocence. They also represent silence, secrecy, reverence, humility, youthfulness and charm. You can use them to say, "You're heavenly", "I miss you" and “I'm worthy of you”. A white rosebud symbolizes girlhood.Blue Roses.
Blue roses stand for fantasies, hoping for miracles, new opportunities and possibilities.
Yellow Roses.
Yellow roses symbolize friendship and freedom, so are not specifically romantic roses. They convey congratulations, joy, gladness and delight. But they also promise a new beginning, say “Welcome back” and “Remember me”, and can convey jealousy and caring. Yellow roses with red tips symbolize friendship and falling in love.
Dead Roses.Dead roses in any color convey "It's over!"-------------------------------------------
LOL. Was bored so went to find out the meaning of the colour of roses. I want a red or purple rose! Heh. Darling, will you buy it for me? :D So much for Valentine's day being a day for couples only. Who said singles can't enjoy too? Especially when the one you like may be with you on that day.... (: Shhhh, Cesca don't tell. Heh. 24 more days. Look, I'm trying to be optimistic here. SO don't try and pull my mood down to rock bottom. It'll be a good day to start afresh. Oh well.
Perhaps I'm really taking what's happening way too serious. However after last night, I really don't know what to do any longer. I don't know if I'm just foolish to believe in what I thought you meant. I don't even know if you were lying when you said all that. I wish what I thought you meant was true. Cause I don't want to take any more hurt again. If you want out now, you better say it fast cause I don't want to be the last one to find out. Neither do I want to sink too deep before it happens.
Being optimistic is haaaaaaaaaaaaaaard.
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Saturday, January 20, 2007,
9:31 PM
Testing
Testing out codes(:
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8:45 PM
I shouldn't love you, but I want to. I can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move. I can't look away.
Sometimes I wonder if you're the right one for me. Its too early to tell right now but boy, you came into my life at the right moment. You made me realize that there's much more to love than what I thought there was. That there were much more opportunities out there than what I thought was the ultimate. Perhaps you'll be the one to teach me how to love again.
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop.
Maybe you can call this infatuation but I think not. I think that maybe God has given me another chance to love again. I'm afraid of taking the chance, a chance to get hurt like I did so many times in the past. I'm terrified that perhaps one day, what I thought was true, actually was nothing but another lie. But I don't know why, I'm willing to take a chance. Perhaps thinking now that we're possible may be too big a step to take. But time will tell whether we were meant to meet along life's journey.
Just so you know, this feelings' taking control of me.
And I can't help it, I won't sit around, I can't let him win now.
Cause boy, I'm scared that if I let you go, love'll never find me again. There's only so much that life gives you. If God threw you a chance to love and you never knew and let the chance fade, you may never ever find it again. What if you're the one for me and I let you go? I've let chances like this slip pass my fingers too many times. I don't want to make the same mistake I made in the past. It'll just mean I never grew up. Every time your message comes in, my heart takes a leap. Every time it isn't you, I can't help feeling disappointed.
Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you.
But I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all before I go, Just so you know.
I sound like some love struck teenager but you gotta know that it takes courage admitting that I've finally let go of the past and I'm willing to move on and look ahead. I want to open my heart up and let down the walls that I've placed around me for so long already. It's tiring keeping my guard up day after day against others. It's restricting me from having the freedom to do what I really want to do.
It's getting hard to be around you, there's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to hide the feelings, and look the other way.
I'm experiencing feelings that I haven't felt in many months. I'm feeling the hope that I thought I would never have again. However will I scare you off with everything that's happening so fast in my life? The fact that'll we may never have enough time for each other. With my studies and Gb and friends. You with the things you have to do. We may meet once or twice a week only. Is that enough for the both of us?
This emptiness is killing me, and I'm wondering why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize it was always there, just never spoken.
Perhaps someday, just someday, we'll realize that we were meant to be together after all. It'll take a long time to be sure but it's something I'm willing to wait for. Be it friends or much more, I'll accept what ever was meant to be. Cause it ain't something that can be forced.
I'm waiting here...been waiting here.
Forever and ever(:
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6:52 PM
Maybe I am indeed, falling for you.
Haven't blogged in ages. Guess I should start now.
Wednesday.
Had Gb, didn't go home straight after Gb, instead went to coffee shop and ate. Mum fetched me home after that. Supposed to meet him but never in the end.
Thursday.
Stayed back after school and had a meeting with seniors. After that ICGB then stayed at the playground and 'chatted' There's still much to say after a whole day at school and Gb. Headed home after that.
Friday.
Gb's ending later and later already. Went to Hougang mall and saw JunXiang they all. QingHong, know the meaning of 'act'? Chatted a lot again. Pulled Cesca home near 8 cause I was dead beat. Had a headache during Gb you see.
Today.
Slept at 8 plus last night and woke up at 7. Called him and chatted for around 1 hour. Wrote a super long monial. Just reminds me of the good ol' days. Stayed home and studied whole day. Finished revising for 3 tests and doing homework too. Bored to death at home. I need to go to the library to borrow more books already. Anyone care to accompany me? Gb's gonna take up 6 days a week for me. Gonna end earliest around 6 everyday. Guess that just shortens time for revision and studies. Dang.
I'm missing you. Guess its weird cause its a feeling I haven't felt in months. Perhaps its really time to start opening my heart up again. Maybe, just maybe, one day we'll be together. I just hope that this time it'll last and you'll be The One.Ly; Can tell, give it a try. Maybe you'll even like it.
Beverly; We need to talk.
Thought seriously about friendships. Maybe some are worth saving. I shouldn't have come to conclusions before thinking. Just hope that maybe, it ain't too late to make amendments.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007,
7:22 PM
'True love prevails all.' Yeah right, my foot.
Yesterday.
Supposed to watch Curse of the Golden Flower with Cesca again but ended up spending the movie money on Kfc. The Manager at the Kovan branch was super rude. She's the manager for crying out loud. Who can I complain about her to? The boss of Kfc? Her service is super bad and I'm so not patronizing that branch ever again. Saw many many people there. Walked around and decided to head home afterwards. Many many homework to do.
Today.
Went to Hougang mall after school. Studied at Mac and attempted to do my homework. Didn't get far. Was waaaaay to distracted by the surroundings. And lo and behold! Shan an
appeared. We got the shock of our lives. And he was with his 'kampong kia'. Cesca&me, or rather me since I did most of the alafing, made them all laugh la. Like so crazy. Long time never alaf like a kid already. Relieves stress you see. Then walked up and down the mall since there was nothing to do. After that sat at Mac again and I did a lil maths. After that headed home. I'm going to study soon so I thought I'll slack before dinner and the serious stuff.
Kristin; Ain't what I said true?
Beverly; Haha, not me, Jesse Mc has the good taste:D
Ly; Sad, must why just keep livejournal can le mah. Put all the post to private.
Elaine; Whaaaaat. LOL
Van; HELLO MY DEAREST<3
Yiwei; HI THERE!
Makeshift fairytale:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Sunday, January 14, 2007,
10:41 PM
All I know of love is how to live without it.
Yesterday.
Sick the whole day. Could hardly get down from my bedroom to the living room. Sat with a book in hand and herbal tea in another. Slacked around and attempted to study for a while but couldn't concentrate. Felt a bit better around 6 so got up and changed for dinner. Can't say I really enjoyed myself. It was kind of boring sitting there with cousins whom I can't have conversations that have some meaning to me with. I rather sit there with my friends any time. Went over to aunt's place and played Xbox and piano. Man, playing it feels heavenly. Went next door to our house and boy, is it huge. I so wish I can stay there but mum said that we already rented it out. Sianed. The rooms are much bigger than my present one now with a bathtub in each bathroom to boost. Imagine that. If only mum told me that the previous tenants moved out in December, I would have invited everyone over there for slumber parties. All we need is some sleeping bags, a stereo, food and alcohol. We can party till the break of dawn. Dig that. Supposed to come home and finish homework but fell asleep on the journey back. Reached home and stumbled back into bed. Couldn't fall back asleep and so messaged until I did.
Today.
Woke up and studied for 7 hours straight. I'm becoming a bloody nerd already. C'mon. It's only the starting of the year for crying out loud. There's a lit quiz and I prepared gerzillion notes for it. Why? I have no idea. Just a recluse I guess. Did some of the ppt slides and then decided to take a break(which is now). Addicted to Solitaire nowadays and I can't just seem to stop playing. Lessons as usual tomorrow and I just can't wait.
Who am I kidding. I want to wake up late and get back to my slack ways. But its like if I don't study, I feel damn weird. Like I forgot to do something. It's irritating the hell out of me. Listened to oldies for the whole day and fell in love with many songs once again. Oh someone, strangle me please. I'm turning into someone I never thought I could be. Let's just hope that all this hard work will pay off and I'll ace my tests. That'll show everyone I ain't no noob.
Reminded of this song from Cesca. Please listen to it and understand.B.A.D - Wo De Cuo.
Exactly next month, it'll be Valentine's Day.
Friday, January 12, 2007,
11:16 PM
Time may take us apart, but I will still love you. I promise.
And when the stars, stars are falling. I'll keep calling.
I promise that you'll be my one my only. Everything. I'll never be untrue.
And I promise back that for your love, I will do anything.
I will give you the stars.
I will buy you the moon.
Even through the longest of our nights.
And even through the darkest days.
Our love will find a way.
And when the stars are falling, I'll keep calling.
And when your dreams are fading, I'll be waiting.
I will still love you.
You are my summer breeze, my winter sun, my springtime soul, my autumn touch of gold.
You are my sky, my rain, the earth in which my love grows. Cause you're all.
The smile of my heart and the breath of my soul.
Even if we find ourselves apart.
We will hold our hopes and dreams forever in our hearts.
Tell me how you feel.
I finally know how to feel, tell me if it's real.
And my heart tells me it's real.
So real.
Time may take us apart that's true.
But I will always be there for you.
You're in my heart, you'll be in my dreams.
No matter how many miles between.
I promise you that I won't forget the day we kissed or the day we met.
The sky may fall and the stars may too.
But I will still, I will still..
Love you.
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9:54 PM
You're not alone, together we stand.
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand.
Yesterday.
Stayed after school to discuss Literature project, went home afterwards as we had no where to go. Reached home at around 5 plus. Now, that's really the earliest I've reached home. Guess going out's kind of a bore now. No where to go and nothing to do. Please, I'm dying under homework and studying. I'm becoming a nerd.
Today.
Rained the whole day. From morning, to afternoon and now it's still raining. Guess somehow or other it suits me perfectly. Shoes got soaking wet and socks too. Disgusting. Did drills during Gb and got into the drill com. Gb can get gold this year in the drill com. If only we work hard as a team and not as an individual. The usual stuff. Went to Coffee shop after that and chatted with Cesca. Her parents sent me to the bus stop after that and took bus home. Thank you Cesca mama&papa. Waited for a while at home bus stop and decided to just walk in the rain since it's already the weekend and my shoes can dry off during the next 2 days. Not to mention if I fall sick, I have 2 whole days to recover.
Not planning to go out during any more weekends since I have to stay home, do my homework, revise, research on and read up more chapters. Its becoming a habit to stay home and just be cooped up in my room. I must ace all my tests this year and do super well. Perhaps then, I can really relax and play hard at the end of this year and not regret for not studying well, not getting good results, yadda yadda. Wish me luck. It's time to sleep and I have to get up early tomorrow to start the day of just right.
I'm becoming more and more serious this days. Smses have not much or no 'lol, haha, heh, heehee, (:, [:, :D, xD' and so on, in them. Guess smsing is becoming a chore now. One day without handphone doesn't seem like such a big deal compared to last year or the previous month anyway.Meihao; Alaf la you. I want to stay home and study. Unless you have any specific reason to go out. Which reminds me, I have to meet Cesca at her house to do Lit project. Perhaps we can squeeze a lil swimming in between? I missed you a lot la. Life seems weird without you there with us.
Beverly; Seriously, does it matter much? I don't see my photo in your Friendster either. Just kidding, I'll put it up when we take new photos.
Kristin; I haven't seen you in absolutely ages though we go to the same school. Like wth? -.-
Elaine; Well, if you're able to pull me away from studying long enough, I'll go out with you(:
Ly; Lol, fine. You're like forever changing urls. What was the reason this time? Same guy?-.-
Yet another month has passed and time's flying out of control.
I have no way to keep track of the million things that have been flying through my mind.
Some how or other, I know that you're still very much a part of me.
In every corner of my memory
There's no place you wouldn't be
If anything, I wish I had
Another dream with you
Life was forever yesterday
Nothing in the world could take
Your love away, will I ever know
That time will ease the pain
For me someday
She said I won't leave you, ever
Just love me forever
She said you can leave, but never
Walk away
Lights reflecting in the evening sun
Back to the place where we were one
Soul mates forever about to chase
Rainbows in the dark
Another day to destiny
Come on and set me free
When I close my eyes, I see your smile
As I walk in the pouring rain
I call your name
She said I won't leave you, ever
Just love me forever
She said, we will be together, someday
She said I won't leave you, ever
Just love me forever
She said, you can leave, but never
Walk away
I can see a million faces
When I take a walk outside
But I just never knew
That I could go a million places
And I'd see always, only you
The loneliness crawls up on me
Without you there's no me
At any time or any place
But time will ease the pain
For me someday
She said I won't leave you, ever
Just love me forever
She said, we will be together, someday
She said, I will wait forever
I won't leave you ever
She said, you can leave, but never
Ever walk away
Don't walk away
Oh no don't walk away
I'll be waiting, always
Until you'll wake up from this dream
Someday
Wednesday, January 10, 2007,
9:26 PM
Time is not a barrier when it comes to you and me<3
Monday.
Went out with Elaine to Bishan and I returned/borrowed more books.
After that we went to Bugis and walked around bugis street.
Kinda miss the shopping spree I had in the holidays.
Saw many pretty clothes and I'm gonna start saving up once again and get another shopping spree.
HEH:DDDDD
After that we went to the library and I borrowed yet again, more books.
Can't you tell I'm a book worm?
Actually, someone was supposed to meet us there but in the end, he backed out.
Oh well.
Had Mos for dinner and headed home afterwards.
I miss the times I used to spend with Elaine though.
As she said, we've spent one year as best friends, one as enemies.
What will this year be?
Tuesday.
Went out with Roujun&Cesca to Hougang mall and we ate KFC.
As usual-.-
Saw super a lot of people and we came to a conclusion.
Never, never go to hougang mall again.
Its like..
Oh nevermind.
I just don't really feel like going there again.
The feeling's very weird with like everyone looking at you or something.
It's not important.
Walked around and saw MANY people.
Hid in the library and this stupid man came and irritate me.
Rah, so idiotic.
Made me feel so gao wei and I asked them to hurry up so that I can leave the library.
Headed home after that.
Reached before 6.
That's practically one of the earliest times I ever reached home except when I never even left the house at all.
Today.
Had CCA Orientation today so dismissed at 12.30.
Saw many envious glances as we[drey&cesca] walked to the canteen.
Didn't want to eat so we sat there and did our maths homework.
So guai right?:DDDDDDDD
After finishing 1 question, realized that it was already 1 so we went to the toilet to change.
Decorated 101 classroom and then, here came the sec 1s.
I feel that they were more daring compared to the previous batches including my year.
Many of them tried archery whereas when we[my year and the previous year] were sec 1s, hardly anyone volunteered at all.
Oh well, many of them expressed their eagerness to join Gb.
Hope that this year, the girls that come in will increase drastically in their numbers.
I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best.
Then had 'high tea' with Cesca and the sec 4s came and joined us.
Sat at the Prata shop and chatted with them.
Just reminds me of a certain guy which we met like almost 2 years ago at the very same shop.
Awww, time passes real quick.
Anyway, 2601 is coming real soooooooooon[:
Cesca, Elaine, Jeremy, Weiqiang. Please get reaaaaaady!
We'll go on a date pretty please!
It has been ages since I last caught up with all of you already, except for Cesca of course-.-
I catch up with her like everyday since we're like sitting next to each other for more than 6 hours a day.
Sometimes even more.
HAHA[:
Please tell me all of you are free that day:D
Elaine; EEE. You act. How dare you demote me luh. KUKU!
Meihao; EH! When are we going out again hurhur. I wanna go shopping with you and make you jealous. HAHA. Just kidding=x
Beverly; Lol, sure. Find a time when we're both free from homework and those irritating stuffs! Can tell, I've been busy practically since school started!
Leegak; Heh, sorry laaaa. Not used to people missing me mah=x THANKS!
Please remember that I'm not through with waiting yet.
Sunday, January 07, 2007,
9:33 PM
So much for my happy ending D:
Well, so much for studying today.
Ended up photoshopping photos, editing friendster, listening to music and eating chocolates and ice creams.
Goodness. I'm really getting fat already.
I better get up and do more exercises which will probably mean like moving from a chair to my bed and back to the chair again.
Nice exercise routine eh?
Hiakhiak.
It'll keep me from growing too fat.
Like real.
Anyway I really need to read up on my Lit text & Chapter 1 of the POA text & the 3rd to 12th page of my Maths text.
Wish me luck cause I'll have to finish it all by tonight.
Preferably before 11 cause I need to get rid of my horrible eye bags which mean earlier nights for me.
No more nonsense about staying up till 3 am talking on the phone for me.
Good night.
,
10:12 AM
My love grows deeper every
day and takes a little piece of me.Yesterday.
Woke up and then headed to Hougang mall to meet Roujun. She wanted to get a bag from Bugis so we headed there. Guess we kinda gossiped a bit. I'm already trying to stop so I guess once in a while I'm allowed to say a bit of how I feel right. Then we found her bag, its nice luh. Wanted to catch a movie but the service was freaking bad. Made us stand there for 15 minutes with no results whatsoever so we took our money and just walked over. Headed to Plaza sing but there weren't any suitable movie slots so we headed to Starbucks instead and drank to our hearts' contend. Headed home afterwards and I did my homework. There were like piles of them already and its like the 3rd day of schooling only? Then went to grandmother's place and continued. Now only left reading up of Physics, POA and researching on the Lit thing.
Today.
Just woke up so what can I do la-.- Most likely will be staying home and studying once again. I still have to read the Lit text. BORING=x
Cescaaa; OI chill la. As I said, take a bath in a bath tub filled with ice cubes. Confirm will put out the fire. And just forget it luh. He's not worth it. And no, I didn't drink. LMAO. Its just a figure of speech. Anyway why cannot go into your blog. So act.
Van; Dark brown. But it turns out a bit reddish. LOL. Good luvk, we'll be guai kias this year okay! Meet up sooooooon leh. So busy de you.
Beverly; Haha. Now a lot of people using act and all of them are more ACT than me^^V and no, that wasn't me. Just see the way I tag you'll know le. Plus I using capital 'Y' not small 'y'.
Know the real meaning of love. That's what I've been feeling for you lately.
Ok, enough slacking. Off to studying. I wanna be a guai kia you see.
Friday, January 05, 2007,
10:19 PM
Midnight, I'm drunk. I don't give a fuck.Wanna dance, by myself. Guess you're outta luck.Sec 1 Orientation this year was like much fun then ours. At least they had orientation tee shirts and a camp fire that actually started. Though the cannon ball didn't work, at elast they got to enjoy the fire for around 1 hour? Our year didn't even manage to start it. Darn the rain. Stayed in school with Cesca until around 9 plus before we headed home.
I'm sick and tired of all this nonsensical stuff that make absolutely no sense. Guess what some of the seniors said were true. You tend not to care about most stuff when you're in Sec 3. It just seems like such a chore to care so I guess I'll just ignore. It makes things seem much simpler and less confusing and tiring.
Gilda; Haha, she didn't. Guess again:D
Elaine; Lol, I'm promoted to your love so soon?[:
Vanessa; You haven't dye back meh, I dye le^^V
leegek; Lmao. GOOD=x
Thursday, January 04, 2007,
8:45 PM
Back to the Schooling Days.Yesterday.
Its good to be back. There'll like many people whom I missed. People like Vanessa Choo. It has been 2 months since I last saw her and boy, I missed her like hell[: Both got caught for our hair along with Cesca. Whole day was filled with talks and talks about discipline, attire yadda yadda. After school went out with Kristin and Xinyi to Bishan then they came to my house to dye my hair. What was supposed to be dark brown became reddish. LOL. But its okay I guess, as in not very obvious. All thanks to the chemical reaction from my previous dye.
Today.
Passed hair check. My hair was practically black? Cesca has a naughty little secret! Psssst, those that want to know please IM me, I'll tell. Clue: It has something to do with her hair. After school went to National Library with Cesca and Roujun. They were gossiping in the library while I was doing homework and a little read up which the teachers expected us to do. I want to ace my tests and exams this year. More of going home early and longer studying hours should do the trick. Wish me luck.
Elaine; I missed you too. Isn't it good to be back in the same class?
Beverly; Yes my dear? <3
Leegek; Are you like really serious. Thanks!
Kristin; And I love you too<3
Xinyi; Eh, don't act. Lol. Dumb Gorilla=D
Well, I'm off to do my Literature notes[=
Tuesday, January 02, 2007,
9:45 PM
Nothing's harder than saying
goodbye.Back from swimming with the two girls. Guess what, they still never fail to make me smile and we're still gossiping many many. Some things just never fail to change eh? And guess what, Vanessa may be joining Gb! HEEHEE:D I hope she'll come in. Though Gb's tough, and some times time consuming, its worth while cause we'll end up bonded together! Hope she gets in*crosses fingers*
:DDDDDDDDDDD
School's tomorrow and I'm dreading it. My school skirt is like so long. Plus no school shoes to wear, all spoil liao. Nevermind, going Danielle Steel-ing tomorrow. Like finally! Haha. I can't wait to see everyone too. Man, this was a long holiday and HEH HEH. Desirable friends in my class^^ I'm gonna meet Cesca than meet the other EX 205 members. Gosh, it's sad to call them ex now D: Well, I gotta go pack my stuff and iron my uniform. All those rubbishy stuff.
Good night everyone.
,
12:20 PM
2007's in full swing now(:
Can't believe that one year's already over and in a sense, we've all matured a lot over the 12 months. Friends have came and went in my life, some stay and the bond's stronger. Others have just fallen out and are more of a stranger to me than they were before. The importance of treasuring friends are all the more significant now that we've all split up.
Huimin&Francesca&Peiling. You 3 have changed my life notably this year. When I was down your were there to listen to me. During those terribly boring times in school, you three made me laughed till my sides ached with the silly jokes your pull on others or just the funny things your say. When I had conflicts with others, especially when school was about to end, you three were the ones that stood by me. It just shows how much some others value me as a friend. But I'm really thankful that I knew you. Now that we're all in separate classes except me and Cesca, I hope that we'll still remain in contact. After all, true friendships never end(: Huimin's friendship is something I really cherish. When everyone seemed too occupied in their lives to care about me, she was the one that I could cry all my frustrations to. She's the best when it comes to advice and never fails to cheer me up. I'm in all smiles when I'm with her[: Francesca is a crazy someone. When with her, life is a turmoil[Can I use it in this way?]. The constant quibbles we have are uncountable but there are things which we agree too okay! Like bitching and drinking and gossiping and tonning. She's a hell of a good friend and a loyal one too. Another 2 years in school with her is under my belt. Peiling and Huimin combined together only spells trouble. Though I don't know Peiling very well, all I can say is that she sure can crank up mean jokes. Always looking for fun, with her I can never stop laughing some times too. And as usual, she stood by me with the other 2 and for that, I thank her too.
Beverly&Vanessa&Kristin&Roujun. Where should I start? I guess mine and Beverly's friendship is the longest in comparison with the rest. 171105 right? As I said many times, conflicts pulled us apart but now, our friendship is still standing. That means something right. And due to our friendship, I gained the acquaintanceship of three other friends. One of whom I misunderstood awfully and hated her like nobody's business. But after clearing all the misconceptions, I found out that Vanessa was a very good friend after all. She's there for me when I was down and needed someone to talk to. And when I had lots to complain about, she listened and that some how made me feel better. Kristin is someone, I have to admit, I don't really agree to on some of the things she does. But I'm no body to comment for I can't say that she agrees to everything I do either. But all in all, she's the babe that introduced Danielle Steel to me and I had many many hours of enjoyable time just reading her books. In a sense, she's the one that I had hell of a fun time with at Suntec City and I can never forget the silly things we did that day. A hug from this babe can brighten my day(: Super darling Roujun is cute! What can I say. She's the one who agreed with me about some people and we gossiped like there's no tomorrow about her. In a sense, she's the only one that dared to openly show her dislike towards her. Surprisingly, despite our differences, we make pretty good shopping partners. Oh this loving girl always encourages me when I feel down.
Audrey&Mingting. I've known Audrey for 4 years already and, I don't know if this is true but its what I feel, there's just something between us that overcomes squabbles and disagreements. Its like even though we flare up at each other from time to time, there's an understanding between us that we were just in lousy moods and there's no apologies needed to patch up. Its something that not many people have. Its a good thing that we have it or I'll lose this girl to the many tempers I had throughout this year and I'll never know what was missing. So far, she's the one that has been listening to me complain and rave and swear and cry and bitch. Its a wonder she has the patience to be there just for me after so long. Poor Mingting, I placed her in many difficult spots this year. She's a thoughtful person and her grades are always better than mine. Especially during exam periods, Starbucks and notes kept us pretty busy. Guess the time that we really start to bond was when Kristin brought me to her house and we sat there and just poured our sorrows out to each other. We have a common aspect in the sense that we, or at least me, haven't really gotten over something yet. I don't know about her though(: Good thing is that I'll be in the same class as this two people(:
Yueli, my crazy, bubbly, funny, energetic sister. Gosh, we spent so much time together during this year and I owe our friendship all to the Superwomen. She's the one that accompanied me during and after school. And even all hours of the day. I promised I'll go to Pepper Lunch and Pastamania with her and I'll keep my promise. I haven't been into any since the last time I saw her. The trip to Sentosa the other time was unbelievably fun thanks to her. We swam, built sandcastles, splashed and ran. Life without her would be horribly boring. With no sparks whatsoever.
And lastly, I don't know whether to mention her or not but here goes,
Elaine. Throughout the whole of 2006, I have been at the battle field with her. Be it open blog wars, quarreling or just pure cold wars, I admit I have never really gotten the courage to stop. It seems so much easier to just hate her from a distance than actually overcome the distance we've drifted. But I guess this has lasted much too long and hating some one indeed is tiring. So here I am. During Sec 1, she was the best friend I ever had. Practically the only one at the end of that year. Guess we had too much in common with each other. When I'm with her, everything seems so familiar. Its like whatever she's feeling, I've felt sometime in my life before. I guess thats why I hated her so much. I hated the fact that we had much in common and ended up falling out on each other. Now that we've drifted apart, I could safely bitch about her without her knowing what I said. Nevertheless, I feel its time to bury the hatchet and start things anew. After all it isn't good to be enemies with someone you're going to spend the next 2 years studying with.
The numerous cliques I've belonged to, the many friends I have in my life. Conflicts that started with who I spend most of my time with and what I said. This are the 2 that stand out.
Superwomen, we've split up but this was the clique that bonded us prominently together. The Starbucks dates we had, the coffees we drank, the places that we went and the things we laughed at. I hope you both remember that friends are better than enemies. Someday perhaps we'll be together again, united as one.
4ofus- Audrey, Kristin, Mingting. Thank you for the beautiful memories. The blog that we vented out sorrows at. The obstacles that we overcame together. The dates that we spent studying huddled in a library or a corner at school.
I just want to say
I Love You to all of you. Though our friendships have been put to the test many times this year and some, the previous year(s) too, they have not broken. This shows that some how, there is a certain something that allowed us to last. I know I've been a lousy friend and some times, too much a bitch, but you have all forgiven me for whatever blunders I've made. Each and one of you is special to me. Though some of you may not like some of my other friends, for my sake, I hope that you all can one day be at the very least, friends. Together, I believe we can overcome whatever life throws at us. I may seem ungrateful to have you all by my side sometimes and I admit, my temper can get the better of me, but I'll keep it in check and no more mood swings as I have proven to you all lately. My swearing has stopped noticeably hasn't it? Thank you for being in my life and changing me to what I am now. Be it good or bad , it makes me what I am today. Thank you for spending the days that meant most to me, with me. Be it my Birthday, Valentines day, Christmas eve&day, you all were there with me[:
To the people that has disliked my actions for so long and to those that I've hurt either intentionally or unknowingly, I hope that since this is a new year, we can all be friends. Though the hurt can never be fully erased and the hate even harder, I know everyone can be given a second chance to make amendments. And I hope I'm given that chance.
God bless you, All of you, the angels in my life, the ones that looked after me and nurtured me.
Monday, January 01, 2007,
10:10 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!Got your new year resolutions already? :D
I'm finally back from Japan and yes, I've missed you all alot. First things first, don't assume that the person I'm refering to in my blog is you cause for God's sake, it ain't. I don't want to start anymore blog wars. And secondly, to the person I'm in deed refering to, I apologise cause I was in a fit of anger when I posted that out. So if you took offence, then I'm sorry. But if you didn't know it was you, then good for you(:
So, Japan was cold and I too many many photos. Mostly of the scenary cause it was pretty. Haha. I'll just upload some of the photos here[:
This is who I spend Christmas with. Thanks to them, I had a lovely time before I flew overseas. And We watched Curse of the Golden Flower. What can I say, with them there made it all the more perfect.

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First day, was just travelling from Singapore to Japan. Had to wake up at like 5am? Super super sleepy. And on the plane I did nothing but doze off and then wake up, play games, watch movies. Yadda yadda.
Second day, we headed to the Asahi beer factory and the beer tasted something like Tiger beer. Quite okay I guess. After that we headed to a temple of some sort and I saw some Japanese people wearing Kimonos and the suit that guys wear. Don't know what's it called. Then came the Chocolate factory. The boss built it like a catsle and there were all these cute little snowman. And yes, I'm liking Snowmen more and more. They're just so cute(: There were many many chocolates inside and they tasted heavenly. Sadly, we didn't buy any):
Third day, after 3 hours of travelling we reached a Lavander farm. Well, the lavander was growing in a greenhouse. Smelled nice and it was the first time I ever stepped into a greenhouse. Cool[: I ate Icecrem in the winter. LOOOL. Mine's vanilla and mum's lavander. Imagine that. But it tasted nice. Then we went to see 2 frozen waterfalls. It snowed and we had fun taking pictures.
Fourth day, the zoo was cool. I took lads of photos of the polar bear. And you know something, the penguins were uber cute. Probably because I watched Happy Feet. I even took videos of the penguins waddling along the snow. Cute! The polar fox or something was cute too. A ball of fur. There were seals too. And MONKEYS! Oh, I so love them. After thatw e went to Santa Park. But we didn't go in. Went into the shops instead and took lots of pictures of cute snowman. I'm addicted.
Fifth day, went to the hot springs and the view was breathtakingly beautiful. The smell of sulphur, however, almost made me choke. It was pretty with all the steam coming out from cracks and gaps on the moutain side. After that some of the people went snow mobile-ing up the moutains.
Sixth day, went to the Bear farm and fed the bears with bags and bags of apples and cookies. Haha. They were cute. Some of them even waved at us to get our attention. CUTE! After that went shopping and at night, went to see the night scene of the city. Pretty(:
Last day, woke up at 3.45 and was out of the hotel by 4.45AM. Cool hur. Travelled the whole day and here I am now(:





Haha, enjoy.
Kristin; Of course I'll remember. Haha. First day after school?[x
Li yan; Why screwed? Mine was almost screwed but thank God some friends got me out of the mess=D Belated Merry Christmas and HEPPY NEW YEAR :D
Lee gek; THANK YOU! Happy new year(:
Van; I miss you too<3 Happy new year dearest.
Meihao; By you? I know=D LOL=x
Cescaaa; NOPE. Dammit. I couldn't use for like a whole week luh-.-
Celina; Haha, no la. Look at Cesca's. Her's is nicer than mine.
Xinyi; I'm your sudoku partner hurhur.